You are a child of God.
Your life has a good purpose and plan.
You aren’t expected to figure that out on your own and you’re definitely not supposed to pursue and do it on your own.
The Lord is with you. The Holy Spirit is with you. They WILL help you on your journey to Gods purpose and plan. Bad things will happen, but God will turn them around...always.
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28 NLT
God is faithful to take care of you - you are His child and He is a good Father who will always do what is best.
What has God called you to?